life's a trash . i'm having a bad fever . good times , blast times is not here yet . idk where the hell did it all went crying every night in my room like a freakin' emo girl -.- i'm fucked up . felt like making a suicide . i was out of my mind , making my own suicide note but fever keeps me away from doing that . i guess allah still loves me . i dream of praying to allah since i've lost my happiness . it just ran away from me and i couldnt chase it back . friends come and go , bestfriends ditch and backstab , what's next ? fml .
its nice to hear someone cares about me but i dont have feelings for that person . i know it will effect him if he knew what i mean , i just wanna be bestfriends . this had happened when i dont love him back , he had forgotten all about me and pushed me away like i'm a dirt . this happens . idk what else to fix . i cant fix everything in life , thats what keeps me frustrated when something happen . as if , i'm not perfect . i know humans are not perfect but to be as perfect as you want to is not impossible .
stoned . if only allah gave us 2 chance to live on earth . means we could die twice . i would be the first to make a suicide on this sort of problems and see how people around me would react .
-fucked up
