what is it ?

future thinking
when u're gone , i'll be waiting
when u're in front of me , i ignore you .
i dont know what i want myself .
how can i get myself through ? :/

so put the blame on me

put ur whole pressure on me ,

put all the guilts on me ,

put the wrong doings on me .

i'm not heartless . think about that . i never think far , never thought that you guys would do such thing .

its eating me inside , its killing me .

my life's shaking , you get what you want . to teach me a lesson , that's too much .

each question , questions myself who am i ? you showed me you know me better than myself .

you proved me i'm always wrong , please take this slowly . my mind is blowing off with all of you coming .

i'll vanish from ur eyes , from laughing ur jokes everyday and from listening to ur problem like a family we stayed. this is what i get in return .

if only i know what's coming ? what's going ?

reality's diff and world shakes me . i'm asking for a favour ,that's impossible for you to make it happen . forgive my sins , i'll make sure i i'll run far away .
neighbourhood .

fatso fatso fatso

look at that yummy shgummy lappy lazy daisy CHOC :O daaaamn , getting fatter . last few days , me and my maid made barbeque garlic beef together and i ate it with i think half of the WHOLE RICE IN THE rice cooker . and here's the result , i'm weighing around 48 kg :O i know , i dont look that fat but my TIGHS are bigger than ever . i looked like an idiot when i'm standing and crouching my back with the WHOLE ATTENTION on my flabbio stomach . EMBARRASSING , i'm not sure if i'll wear shorts again . maybe after i worked out and lose some weight like ELMA . ooooh , she's my BODY IDOL for the year . i bet she can keep that body balance forever . haish , fuckyeahprettypeople :'( 

look at yourself

thanks for making me the centre of your world . omg , u're making me more famous than ever . thank you very much . can i please know how old are you ? cause u're acting like a kiddo . puh-lease , stay away , dont act like u're big . wake up , face the reality . no one plays that game anymore . -megan frog

i told u imma put it here kan CYA ! hahahaha , hope it works ! :D 

pictures lepaking

cya left , behind white shirt is ashman , right in front me , behind there , DUNNO WHO ? hahaha :p

LMAO

HELLO .

feeling kind of hyper today . just now , at and IN school . me , cya and damdam skipped for three classes for a stupid laughing gas . LMAO ; damira passed out while we were walking out of the bathroom in front of zeta's class . HAHAHAHA ! ROFLMAO ! me and cya cant stop laughing our ass off for that . damn that was so funny , at last she's finally alive from the dead . HAHAHA . then we walked around the school laughing like crazy MANIACS . with NO REASON !

damira damira -.- that was awesomely stupid , hilarious !

thought about this before ?

you've always acted tough , you've always think u're big . did you knw no one respects you . you live in your own world with those sisterhood's so called urs . u ppl are all the trash in school . u'd never realize how stupid u've been acting , hope one day u'll find out HOW remarkably stup you are . to compare urself in reality world , you're just the stupid tiny ants .

dope

i dont make a good first impression .

 

yes yes yes

sometimes life can be deceiving.

what's this ? :/

are u still standing beside me ?
i cant seem to feel anything
not even your breathing ,
nothing touches me , not even the wind .

are you there ?
i thought u'll never leave me ?
what's happening ?
can you please tell me ?

questions i leave for you ,
all i received is the same bloody thing ,
are you leaving me hanging ?
answer me please .

does all this solves the problem ?
we've been through this many times ,
i want to make it right ,
or you wanna suffer from this all night ?

all night long ,
i cant wait no more ,
i'm desperate for happiness ,
but you just keep on coming for the worse .

immature ?

i noticed for sometimes that i'm being immature . oh yes , i know u do too . especially when i'm in a fight , i almost fight about everything , i dont know why i cant deal with no fighting . i dont come from a PEACEFUL family . its just in my blood . some girls , think life is all about love . that's what matters to them . i do take it seriously about love , happiness and all but fight always comes first ? why ? i cant control my bloody temper , yeap that's why . anger is always in me , its just the waiting for the right timing to blow it all of . see , IMMATURE :p haha

shoot em up' YEAH

wow wow wow , hold on girl ! what does your foot eats ? me ?

"dia bagaikan makanan kaki aku"

hold up

this isnt fair when i dont do anything to it . i wont just let it go . i know you're VERY close to her doesnt mean you can say anything about me ?

i was holding everything behind about you , and try to keep the anger to myself . oh no , you just blow it off like that ? let me blow it off my way now . haish , dont call yourself a GANGSTER in your sisterhood ? pfft , if u really are , i wanna see who will really kiss ur leg and SALUTE kau do ? haishhh . susah aa cm ni . haha .

i dont even know if you really get what i mean HONEY ?


just get back from sunway with cya , amalina & her sister , haziq , imran , izzado , fazrul . went and eat at a&w , watch movie 'alice in wonderland (without 3D)' and , went shopping for haziq's shirt , lastly kaaareeeeeoooookeee ! then , mom came by . went lasenza -.-

after that , went & lepak + eat for dinner at cafe , with amin ,haris , wansu , paan , and few ppls .. missing out haziq ! :D bodoh -.-

do you ppl get it ?

blogger is about you , posting ur daily life on what happened? or whatever you wanna talk about and remain it as pulicity . i JUST DONT GET IT when ppl privates it . who's gonna see ur blog ? haiyaaaaaaaaaaa -.- what laa

randoms

pictures i think its pretty . diff than before . not including ppl ! haha

all of the pictures . are all in my phone ! oh , READ MY NEXT POST !

seasons

sorry , long time didnt post . i didnt go anywhere , its just i mls wanna type . updates on facebook je . 

so here comes the season which&when my mood changes to "LAZY AS HELL" . i'm at my cousin's house . maryam :) putu mayam ! (on the left)

bought new phone , blackberry storm 2 . not that into bold anymore :p coming wednesday , going to farris house for gambling poker NIGHT ;) on friday last week , had roadrun which is crosscountry but the school name it "roadrun" . idkwhy ? and my legs still hurts . SUCKS -.- slept at my cousin's house and here i am now . coming holidays , i dont really have any plans . but going to fill it up ...

manicure padicure at opi / near house .

check out dance class at taipan 

clean my face from pimples or wtv at concorde 

watch movie alice in wonderland and if there's luck , i would LOVE to watch valentines !

and the rest of the days , TUITION . fck it :(

downloaded a few songs, and still struggles for MORE nice songs . i'm into any genre excepts for screamo , metalic or all those very brutal ...

american idol ! :D so into it rite now . so yeah , VOTE FOR DIDI BENAMI AND TODRICK HALL ! yeah man ! i'm so in love with the song terrified by kara dioguardi because of didi . she made her own version of that song and i keep on singing that song ! ;D hope she stays till the end of the season .

hmmmm , what else ? oh yeah , i dunno what's the difference between revolution and resolution ? is this right ? : 2010 revolution ? or 2010 resolution ? 

anything you can contact me through facebook :shazza fadzil . NO BINTI !