waking up to jersey shore !

it has always been true in my life

it was 10 o'clock in the morning and i was about to wake up but i pretended sleeping cause my parents are going out to the market which i HATE THE MOST ! out of nice million places to go , their fav place is the freakindisgustingsmelly market . like , HELLOOOOO ? we're on a vacation . u dont need to spend hours there at the market . they're ridiculously weird . YEAP ! 

as soon as the last sound of the door closed , me and my sister wake up and do whatever we wanna do . i grab my laptop and watch jersey shore right away and she's up to call her boyfriend at 7 am there back home . her boyf doesnt go to sleep till its 12.30 pm . for now , i've finished watching jersey shore season 1 and 2 in 2 and a haf day . now i feel like watching a movie but i dont really know what movie should i watch ? remind me of a website where i watch all the free movies . http://www.letmewatchthis.com . try to choose sockshare / megavideo . 

i overheard my parents talking this morning and they were saying about coming back at 4 pm . like thats gonna happen . but if they happen to be that cruel i'm still gonna be fine . we have 4 days to go . i dont mind spending my time in the apartment all day . its like enjoying my time alone . i need it . ever since the YESTERDAY THANG IN THE MORNING happened .. so today's fine . at least i dont need to deal with it . LOL xD easy to say , i'm known to be miss grumpy every morning . especially when its not my time to wake up . like babies that dont get enough sleep , they cry but i get mad at everything even when its the right thing to do :p HAHAHA .

thats it for now . later 

in australia , melbourne

had a little tension going on this morning with my sister , my mom and my dad . we planned the night before for my dad to drive us to victoria street . where the shops just happens . then , i woke up and get dressed as well as the other two ladies in the house . but then as i walk inside my dad's room and there he is in his boxer doing his e-mails . all of us are ready except for him . i hate waiting . got that from my dad .. and now he's doing it . i got pissed . i did ask him nicely to get ready cause all of us are ready and waiting for HIM for more than an hour !?! guess what ? he blew me off by shouting to my face . i was pissed as hell . i just walked out . then , my sister asked for the comb . she sits nearer to the kitchen counter where the comb is and asked me to get it for her . i was like , u can reach it !!!! fuck it man . my mom was shouting to me too, saying that i've been acting sooo lazy and she cant stand it . what a fucked up family i have . then i got up and walked straight to the kitchen counter and threw it to her . but it accidently HIT HER ON THE HEAD . she give me this slap/hit? i dont know what should i call cause it was like the girly thaaang type of slap . bitch slapp !! yeahhh .. then , of course . complain to my mom . how old is she ? 6 ? you are 21 for god sake !!!! urghh !!! i shouted at her then my dad got up and claimed i was the guilty one . fuck that mannnnn !

he had a shower after giving me a looong loooooong loooooooooooooooooong stupid useless assfcknghole madtalk . i was with my laptop watching jersey shore . woohh , i didnt hear a thing whatever he said . like wtv . so thats how stubborn i am :p it was 2 o'clock and the shops here mostly close at 5 . a very short time for us to shop . reached at the destination and my sister apologized . LOL xD she was childish . i didnt talk much after what happened . i just realize my ego's higher than i expected .

i googled some exercises for toning my body like abs , thighs and hips . it all came up in my head after i bought a magazine and i saw megan fox's body . fuck that . i want that body soooo bad i started to save the websites for toning my body and note them all . i needed that . haha xD lame-ass .

as yall heard .. i'm shifting school next year . its nice to get away from the tensions inside of me being in that school with the old mates . shifting to sapura smart school to top it all of NO CHANCE ON SKIPPING SCHOOL !!! :( hahaha . thats the main thing i search for it in that school . it has more than 10 cctv's ? the main gates are HUGE AND TALL . almost like jail gates . one of the creepiest school gates i have ever seen . LOL xD

Wow wow

Hello there . I know I know it's been awhile yeah ? I'm in Australia and it's the end of the year . Soon to say goodbye to 2010. Sorry for the "too long being away" . I started another blog . Lol . It's habit . You must have wonder why did I do that ? Well I thought of starting a new blog is like starting a new beginning after ups and downs . Then , out of nowhere , a fan of mine send me a message on Facebook. AHDIYANA :D yeah . That's how I get myself on track . bla blablabl the rest of the year was a blahhhh .

Let's skip the boring part .I'm now in melbourne as I told u earlier . It's fun here . It's our first time for a short vacayy . We usually have our time off for two weeks and this time is a way of change . It's gonna be a week only . We can't imagine . LOL . School is getting nearer . Nwayy , before we flew here , my mom's friend stayed here and my mom did asked about how's the weather and how is it going there ? Is it raining ? Cold ? And she said it's summer . So we brought shorts , tank tops and slipper . Well i brought my vans shoes . Its one and only shoes I brought heren:D and when we flew here .. Me and my sister went out first .. Out of the airport and it was freezing cold . Obviously we came unprepared . Horrible .stupid !! Hahahahaha . I brought a pair of jeans . We didn't bring any sweaters or whatsoever . Planned on spending our money to buy sweaters and pants more but we forgot that we flew and reached on Christmas day . The shops are closed . Had a laugh out of it . The next day was heaven . Boxing dayyyy . shopped a lot of clothes . It was fine . The weather is still cold . Maybe it was much colrr back then and when the temperature gets higher its called summer . For us , Malaysian , so much of summer . It's like living in the freezer !! Not kidding .

After we reached at the shopping place .. We quickly ran into a shop cause it's too cold out there and it's hotter inside the shops . After paying we get ready to ruuuuuun again and search for another shop to chill in .
Hahahah . guess what the people here wears ? Tanktops and highwaisted shorts without any cardigan or tights underneath . Damn son ;O hahaha . Funny us . Haha . We were the odd ones . Saying it's cold its cold while the rest are eating ice creams and enjoying the weather .

what is it ?

future thinking
when u're gone , i'll be waiting
when u're in front of me , i ignore you .
i dont know what i want myself .
how can i get myself through ? :/

so put the blame on me

put ur whole pressure on me ,

put all the guilts on me ,

put the wrong doings on me .

i'm not heartless . think about that . i never think far , never thought that you guys would do such thing .

its eating me inside , its killing me .

my life's shaking , you get what you want . to teach me a lesson , that's too much .

each question , questions myself who am i ? you showed me you know me better than myself .

you proved me i'm always wrong , please take this slowly . my mind is blowing off with all of you coming .

i'll vanish from ur eyes , from laughing ur jokes everyday and from listening to ur problem like a family we stayed. this is what i get in return .

if only i know what's coming ? what's going ?

reality's diff and world shakes me . i'm asking for a favour ,that's impossible for you to make it happen . forgive my sins , i'll make sure i i'll run far away .
neighbourhood .

fatso fatso fatso

look at that yummy shgummy lappy lazy daisy CHOC :O daaaamn , getting fatter . last few days , me and my maid made barbeque garlic beef together and i ate it with i think half of the WHOLE RICE IN THE rice cooker . and here's the result , i'm weighing around 48 kg :O i know , i dont look that fat but my TIGHS are bigger than ever . i looked like an idiot when i'm standing and crouching my back with the WHOLE ATTENTION on my flabbio stomach . EMBARRASSING , i'm not sure if i'll wear shorts again . maybe after i worked out and lose some weight like ELMA . ooooh , she's my BODY IDOL for the year . i bet she can keep that body balance forever . haish , fuckyeahprettypeople :'( 

look at yourself

thanks for making me the centre of your world . omg , u're making me more famous than ever . thank you very much . can i please know how old are you ? cause u're acting like a kiddo . puh-lease , stay away , dont act like u're big . wake up , face the reality . no one plays that game anymore . -megan frog

i told u imma put it here kan CYA ! hahahaha , hope it works ! :D 

pictures lepaking

cya left , behind white shirt is ashman , right in front me , behind there , DUNNO WHO ? hahaha :p

LMAO

HELLO .

feeling kind of hyper today . just now , at and IN school . me , cya and damdam skipped for three classes for a stupid laughing gas . LMAO ; damira passed out while we were walking out of the bathroom in front of zeta's class . HAHAHAHA ! ROFLMAO ! me and cya cant stop laughing our ass off for that . damn that was so funny , at last she's finally alive from the dead . HAHAHA . then we walked around the school laughing like crazy MANIACS . with NO REASON !

damira damira -.- that was awesomely stupid , hilarious !

thought about this before ?

you've always acted tough , you've always think u're big . did you knw no one respects you . you live in your own world with those sisterhood's so called urs . u ppl are all the trash in school . u'd never realize how stupid u've been acting , hope one day u'll find out HOW remarkably stup you are . to compare urself in reality world , you're just the stupid tiny ants .

dope

i dont make a good first impression .

 

yes yes yes

sometimes life can be deceiving.

what's this ? :/

are u still standing beside me ?
i cant seem to feel anything
not even your breathing ,
nothing touches me , not even the wind .

are you there ?
i thought u'll never leave me ?
what's happening ?
can you please tell me ?

questions i leave for you ,
all i received is the same bloody thing ,
are you leaving me hanging ?
answer me please .

does all this solves the problem ?
we've been through this many times ,
i want to make it right ,
or you wanna suffer from this all night ?

all night long ,
i cant wait no more ,
i'm desperate for happiness ,
but you just keep on coming for the worse .

immature ?

i noticed for sometimes that i'm being immature . oh yes , i know u do too . especially when i'm in a fight , i almost fight about everything , i dont know why i cant deal with no fighting . i dont come from a PEACEFUL family . its just in my blood . some girls , think life is all about love . that's what matters to them . i do take it seriously about love , happiness and all but fight always comes first ? why ? i cant control my bloody temper , yeap that's why . anger is always in me , its just the waiting for the right timing to blow it all of . see , IMMATURE :p haha

shoot em up' YEAH

wow wow wow , hold on girl ! what does your foot eats ? me ?

"dia bagaikan makanan kaki aku"

hold up

this isnt fair when i dont do anything to it . i wont just let it go . i know you're VERY close to her doesnt mean you can say anything about me ?

i was holding everything behind about you , and try to keep the anger to myself . oh no , you just blow it off like that ? let me blow it off my way now . haish , dont call yourself a GANGSTER in your sisterhood ? pfft , if u really are , i wanna see who will really kiss ur leg and SALUTE kau do ? haishhh . susah aa cm ni . haha .

i dont even know if you really get what i mean HONEY ?


just get back from sunway with cya , amalina & her sister , haziq , imran , izzado , fazrul . went and eat at a&w , watch movie 'alice in wonderland (without 3D)' and , went shopping for haziq's shirt , lastly kaaareeeeeoooookeee ! then , mom came by . went lasenza -.-

after that , went & lepak + eat for dinner at cafe , with amin ,haris , wansu , paan , and few ppls .. missing out haziq ! :D bodoh -.-

do you ppl get it ?

blogger is about you , posting ur daily life on what happened? or whatever you wanna talk about and remain it as pulicity . i JUST DONT GET IT when ppl privates it . who's gonna see ur blog ? haiyaaaaaaaaaaa -.- what laa

randoms

pictures i think its pretty . diff than before . not including ppl ! haha

all of the pictures . are all in my phone ! oh , READ MY NEXT POST !

seasons

sorry , long time didnt post . i didnt go anywhere , its just i mls wanna type . updates on facebook je . 

so here comes the season which&when my mood changes to "LAZY AS HELL" . i'm at my cousin's house . maryam :) putu mayam ! (on the left)

bought new phone , blackberry storm 2 . not that into bold anymore :p coming wednesday , going to farris house for gambling poker NIGHT ;) on friday last week , had roadrun which is crosscountry but the school name it "roadrun" . idkwhy ? and my legs still hurts . SUCKS -.- slept at my cousin's house and here i am now . coming holidays , i dont really have any plans . but going to fill it up ...

manicure padicure at opi / near house .

check out dance class at taipan 

clean my face from pimples or wtv at concorde 

watch movie alice in wonderland and if there's luck , i would LOVE to watch valentines !

and the rest of the days , TUITION . fck it :(

downloaded a few songs, and still struggles for MORE nice songs . i'm into any genre excepts for screamo , metalic or all those very brutal ...

american idol ! :D so into it rite now . so yeah , VOTE FOR DIDI BENAMI AND TODRICK HALL ! yeah man ! i'm so in love with the song terrified by kara dioguardi because of didi . she made her own version of that song and i keep on singing that song ! ;D hope she stays till the end of the season .

hmmmm , what else ? oh yeah , i dunno what's the difference between revolution and resolution ? is this right ? : 2010 revolution ? or 2010 resolution ? 

anything you can contact me through facebook :shazza fadzil . NO BINTI ! 

i walk it out

did ya know tht anyone sits beside me in class just cant study and always gets warning with the teachers . i make them laugh , talk alot , question themselves and confuse . hahahahha . ask ashman & alif lamim ! ahaha .

i havent been out for quite aloooong time . all i do was hangin out with neighbours and around the area . i made a deal with my dad yesterday ! if he GIVE me my blackberry storm , then i'll study hard . or my education just make ur "JAW DROP" in a bad day . all zero bby! haha , my threat worked out and he's trying to figure out ways to help me :p oh well , i'm his fav ones . wht to do ? its meant to be tht way daddy.

for my first and last time in my whole entire life , i queued at KFC for an hour just for my brother . he wanted the chicken so badly and daddy was LAZY to queue , so i did . and for that , i hope he'll give me my blackberry soon , before the march test result comes out ! well , that was the deal . SUPPOSEDLY ! haha .

ashman and alif was sooo gay and they fell in love with my english teacher . ITS A SHEMALE : O haha . she's fat , big butt , eergh UGLY , and she made the eye scann surgery . so for now , and forever she dont need to wear the spectacles. but still, she's ugly . she like to do with her hair . diff style everyday . one word for that , still ugly . haha . pity her . but SOMEHOW , ashman and aliff were sooooo disgusting that when she passed by our table , they'll be like "oh my goshhh , she's so AMAZING , her voice makes me cumm , goddammit bby come over here sit on my lap and so on . "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE . i cnt stop saying tht . eeergh , BARF*

so , for the whole week , that's all i did . nothng interesting and yeaah . school was and is STILL gonna fill with drama . shit you ppl that plays war games and its not even your roll . u bitches , are all fakers and useless in this world . sinners !

was it fun

ANNICK GOUTAL - one of the most expensive and creative perfumes in the world . she started from young . she experiments some of the henri ... perfume ingredients and made her own personal perfumes . ppl started to comment and she opened a boutique . and oh did i mention that she worked really hard on investigating the ingredients and blablablaa ? it took her for about 7 years ! :O

my mom bought it and i cnt believed it . isnt it cooool ? i thought of asking her one for me , but why should i ? when she'll ALWAYS buy for herself . different fragrance . :p i'll just wear it whatever it is . haha .

my day was okay . not the knd of BAD DAY . but it was okay . was so excited to jog for the day after school but HZQ made me waited for YEARS . nnt nnti , lama lama HUJAN dh . bbi -.-" haish . i realized that i spent the day lepak . from 5 pm . before that , i spent my time in front of the computer . youtube-ing about krumping . AWESOME :D

mom just reached home safely , and i was like . SO HOW ? my dance class . and she asked me to google and i found on this one webbiesite :D OMG , so excited . hahaha . its at damansara uptown ;p YEAH MAN .

hello MRS.E

a friend i lost . how hurt i was , the poem from the title "is this what u call happy ?" . now we had found the bastard behind this .

my door just open and u had slammed ,

u know what ? , now i dont give a damn .

are u happy what u had found ,

its time for us to push u around ,

u'd just went out of bound ,

lets make u look at us high up ,

u wanna know how ?

its when u're from the ground .

the stories u made , made us blown ,

bullshit lies , u think its fun ?

we're gonna hunt you down ,

and u aint got no place to run .

everyone believed by what u've said ,

now u're proud and glad ,

this isnt finish yet ,

have u had enough of being the bad ?

it looks like u're asking us for a threat ?

do u have something to say darl ?

it isnt tht baaad

awwww look at that LIL cuties 8)

soon , one day I HAVE TO tame a baby tiger , and play with it everyday till it eats me . hahaha . no , i mean , till forever and when i;m old , its the tiger i could depend on . perhaps it wont eat me -.-

i watched this stupid movie of indonesian banned movie . search it on youtube . the movie called mau lagi "ML".

imma gonna stay home all day long and not TRYING to go out . wanna get my legs all shine and white . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA . laugh it all out . i know its impossible . but i realize i;m getting darker every time i go out to hangout . my legs are like BARBECUE chickens -.- anyway , mummy's gonna cook steak for me for being so kind and generous to not make any trouble while daddy's away to amsterdam . he's coming back on monday . and there goes my holiday . SUCH A WASTE :'( but , excited for a few stuffs . dad's coming back and cant wait for my louis vuitton(HAHA) and mom's gonna discuss with the choreographer i mean , the dance class soon . next week . my toilet's gonna get fixed . the water heater in my toilet doesnt seem to work at all . sucks -.- and tired of using parents toilet cause theirs .. ergh , so many cockroaches . everything must be done next week which is after raya cina . tmrrw , elma emira's surprise birthday party at burger king ! 4 pm . everyone is welcome :)

watcha say ?

 awww :) isnt it cute ? that zebra teddy :D

i bought this book of sophie kinsella's (last year). the limited edition . its RM78+ . bt i didnt even read it yet . my mom pissed about why the hell did i go and buy that book ? hahaha . i just love it cause its big and bulky + prettttyy . hahahah . that's all .

for these past few days , i dont really know why on earth am  i doing with translating history from bm to english myself . kind of hard to translate but its easier to understand . it helps me a lot . my history tutor tried to help me with that . but i just dont get her translation . her english sucks -__-" sorry to say but u're in college and took the english course plus ur english sucks .

met yusuf today and now just got back from lepak at bbq . around my house area . we all grow up in front of each other's eyes . familia ;D

here's some pictures

was checking his phone . videos of his friends jadi gila -.-

awwwwww ;)

did ya know ?

did ya know that my password for blog and facebook is a cursing word and theres " :) " at the end .

 and did ya know that my password for my myspace is something to do with LOVE :D hehehe . 

went sunway today . with soph and her friends and a friend of her friend , and a friend of the boyfriend and BLABLABLA ... went to search for my hoodie shirt . but cant find at any of the shops . all expensive -.-

i wanna share a story about my sister experience .

she and her friends went out at night to go for a karaoke . it was at the curve redbox . then , they already knew that u'll pay when u're done karaoke-ing . so they did , but they seat at one corner . i mean , only four of em and the room was pretty big . and when they'll are done . went out to pay , and the guy said . so , there's five of you , its RM... . then , they all were like confused ? FIVE ? where got ? only 4 ! the guy said 5 and they said NO ! its 4 only . here it is , one two three four ! then , the guy said , ohh okayy . maybe ur friend ? and they said , NOOOO . then , the guy showed the cctv to them . here it is , five of you . suddenly at the CCTV , there's this long hair girl sitting at the other end without moving a little bit . GODDAMMIT when i heard that , i wanted to scream :O seriously . its the ghost . she sat there for few hours wehh . and when they went out . she also went out . FUCK isnt it ? :O

trying to figure it out

my mom asked me to stop skating and join something else that's healthy and gives you benefit . i've heard suggestions such as - dance class , modeling , guitar / drum , volley ball (cause he thinks its sexy . STUPID! ) , golf , and etc . its all usuf's idea . awww :') thanks but i think i can go for dancing class and would love to join the HIP HOP . hahaha xD well , its cool u know ? :p

for the past YEARS i've joined alot of sports games . such as , swimming , tennis , badminton's for fun , cycling , basketball , gymnasts , taekwondo -__-" and etc . LOL , the sports freak is just in my blood . my mom's side . there' only one thing missing in my family's blood , SHOPPING OBSESSION :'(

btw , i think there's something wrong with my blogskin . it seems like i cant put my picture as LARGE size cause if i do , the picture will be cut 1/3 of it !!! or sometimes half . eeeergh SUCKS -.-

lets see a big dream of mine

so , when i grow up i want to see myself living in green house . special ones . like these 

recognize this ? from the movie " when a stranger calls " ! awesome house . damn freakin rich -.-

if i plan to live with a couple of friends , this will just suit perfectly

i will have this house if i'm ready to have a BIG family . what a fun house . perfect house for a party TOO ! ;D

i just LOVE THE WHOLE CONCEPT OF THE SWIMMING POOL . i will make my own swimming pool just like THESE when i have a house. dont care if its number 1 house or two or three , i just love it ! ;D 

do you know that the 5th richest man in the world lives here ? awesome isnt it ? its a HOUSE , not a show room or an apartment or whatever . for the first time when i saw this , i said " HOLLY MOTHER , JESUS CHRIST 8O " !

not to forget , this lil mansion HAHA . i will also put this at the swimming area , for our guest lil room and can also use it for a barbecue for the whole family ? awwww :') isnt it gorgeous ? :D

oh and in the INSIDE of the house , here it is . my future living room :') 

the kitchen will be like THIS !

this bedroom wouldnt hurt :p

HALLELUJAH BABYY ;D 

the hallway ppl ;)

this is my garden .

do u knw what this is ? hahaha , its a TREE HOUSE :D

the closet bby. for me and my future husband . or if i dont have one , OOH , DAMN this is just perfect for myself :D

so , now u've seen my BIG HUGE HUMONGOUS dream house or should i call it as my CRIB ? hahaha . teen crib . i will definitely marry to a rich man yo ! ;D hahaha .

i'm an early bird

weird things about me ;

i dont know why when i'm bored especially NIGHT times even though its at 7 i can easily fell a sleep just like that ?

i somtimes laugh when ppl call me an idiot .

i dont like to poop , i sometimes hold on to it . HAHAHAHAHAHAH :p

i dont use my pyjamas , instead i use mom's or dad's shirt and a pair of shorts or without . their shirts are cooling , cause its tripple XL and when i wear it , its like a dress . reaches to the knee point .

school days . i hate waking up early but at 7 is good, tht's why i'm late EVERYDAY . and i dont brush my teeth directly after i woke up but i will definitely shower first and when i'm totally ready with my shoes on for school then only i brush my teeth . and i dont do breakfast that often .

i like to google about everything . i'm a freak googlerholic xD example when i'm off to cut my hair at a barber shop , i'll just google hairstyles . and many more ... etcetc.

i am a very bad planner .

(i'll post a few more in the coming updates ) gotta mandi now . ciaoo ;D